Day 1....

I debated starting this blog. It's hard for me to let people know my weaknesses. I don't like it. But, after speaking with my sister, I need to do something to encourage not only me, but others like me, who struggle losing weight. A little background on me....
I am #2 of of family of 5. I have always been involved in sports, honestly, for as long as I can remember. I love to play basketball.
I am married to Zorn. We've been married for 8 years. I have Brejden, who is almost 5, Amilya, who is 3, and Cartr who is 10 months. I stay at home with them while my husband works. Sometimes, I wish I had a job that I could leave. I love my children, but I struggle, as does any mother.
My mom, Julie, passed away almost 3 years ago. I miss her terribly. But, with that, you should know that a lot of my problems come from her. I'm not doing this to make her look bad, but just to tell you the truth. My mom loved to eat. I was always embarrassed by her weight. She gained weight after her mother passes away unexpectedly. She was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was 14. The doctor told her he had never seen anyone gain weight on chemo, until he met her. She was very active when I was younger, but she had to work and it took its toll on her body (as did having 5 kids). She beat cancer and started to get better. I got married, and we started working out together. When I was 21, she started getting a cough. We thought it was asthma (3 out of the 5 kids have asthma). The cough didn't get any better. I got pregnant, and we found out my mom's cancer was back. After giving birth to Brejden, I became a stay at home mom, and took care of my sick mom. Three days after Brejden's first birthday, I found out I was pregnant. It was very unexpected! Amilya was born when Brejden was 19 months old! I lost all my pregnancy weight and was looking good. On October 17, 2007, my mom passed away due to her cancer. I was devastated. She had become my best friend. I turned to eating to deal with the pain.
I know am a size 13/14, but was a size 8/9, when she died. Surprisingly, I have actually lost weight this year.